I try to be consistent about blogging…I really do! But life happens and BOY has life been happening lately! To say that I’ve been busy would be the understatement of the year!
BUT…I learned a lesson today that I want to make sure I have to refer back to, so blogging about it gives me an opportunity to have something to refer back to.
I’ve had a situation in my life over about the past year that sometimes feels like there’s a scab on my life that keeps getting pulled off. Like as in STILL on about a weekly basis. Just when I think maybe I can be done with it and it has completely healed over and I won’t have to “mess” with it anymore, something comes up that feels like the scab is just being ripped off one more time, and the hurt is revealed fresh and new, as if it just happened.
It happened again late this week more than once (isn’t THAT fun?) and I was praying about it this morning in a time of quiet while I was getting ready for the day and I was really kind of whining. I asked God WHY this couldn’t just die and why I had to continue to deal with not only my hurt, but watching others around me hurt their way through the healing of this situation.
It was still just lurking at the back of my mind when I went to church this morning and when we were encouraged into a special time of prayers of thanksgiving and praise by my wise pastor, PT. As I prepared myself to pray, it was as if the Holy Spirit whispered to me, “There is PURPOSE in the scab. I know what I’m doing. TRUST ME.”
It was then that I came to realization that one of three things is going on, and to be honest, it may very well be ALL OF THEM: Either there are still things for me to learn from the circumstances of this particular situation OR My Father, who knows ALL THINGS, knows that I need the reminders in order to be sensitive to what He has already taught me OR He wants me to remain sensitive to the hurt for others who are still walking through it also.
I also came to this realization: When we have injuries or wounds that scab over, sometimes they heal over and there is never another indication of them, but at other times there is a scar that is left. That scar is a constant reminder of the circumstances surrounding the injury. The wound stops hurting, but the INDICATION of it is still there.
I truly think that this is one of THOSE situations. Throughout life, for everyone involved, there will be reminders. How we choose to look at those reminders is up to us.
I have a choice to make, not just today, but on a daily basis. I choose joy! I choose healing! I choose forgiveness! I choose to let myself be “used”.
What about you? I would love to hear your thoughts. Would you comment below to tell me how God has taught YOU these things?